And every thought’s a possibility. And the voices are heard but nothing is seen. Why do you spend this time with me? May be an equal mystery.

For anyone who doesn’t know, that’s the chorus to the Indigo Girls song Mystery. And that, Ladies and Gentlemen, is exactly how I felt last night.

Summer is coming to an end. And the nights are cool like Autumn. And last night, I hung out with Andrew all night and couldn’t help but wonder why on earth he puts up with my shit sometimes.

I’ve been really shitty with him lately. Not intentionally really. He was going through this faze before I left. Where he was experimenting with being transgender and wearing skirts and having purple hair. He was behaving in a way more flamboyant fashion than is true to him. And he was unhappy due to the negative energy people were sending him. And he was unhappy due to the fact that he hates his job. But, don’t we all?

While I was away, he was fired. And I came back to the Andrew I’ve been friends with since Freshman year. The Andrew who is always smiling and has this lust for life. The Andrew with the buzz cut dirty blonde hair. The Andrew with words of wisdom who wants to sit and talk about anything and everything well into the morning. The Andrew I know. The Andrew I love. The Andrew who is my best friend.

And so last night, we sat out on the deck and we tie-dyed. We tie-dyed my white flowy skirt and the Hello Kitty hoodie that my Autistic childhood friend got me from an anime convention. We smoked a bit. And we talked. About his transgender experiment, his happiness now that he’s not working that soul devouring job anymore, my potential move back to my home town to work as a nanny for Julia’s mom, and just life in general.

I have my best friend back finally. I have a way out of this dead end state. I have family and friends who love me. And, Autumn is slowly creeping up. And Autumn is a wonderful season. I can’t say it’s my favorite because I love them all for their own respective beauty. But Autumn, Autumn is certainly amazing. The way the air feels. And the colors of the leaves. As the nights start earlier and earlier and the whole world just feels and peace to me. I can’t wait. This will be my last Autumn here and I plan to enjoy it to the best of my ability.