Seriously, it’s as though I’ve gotten morbidly obese. I mean, not really but I am over weight. Right now, it’s like 10:30 and I’m totally starving and hungover. I should eat something. I don’t think I will though. I feel like starving all damn day. I guess to punish myself. For being so fat, for drinking too much, for being that crazy girl who drives the boys away. If I was hot, Mr. TDH would want to hook up when he wasn’t drunk. Although, he’s always drunk. And that’s what I don’t really get. As the product of 2 alcoholics, I try to stay away from heavy drinkers. But, he’s a really cool really nice guy. And well, whatever. I’m probably an alcoholic too. And a fatass. I got a new puppy though. He’s FULL of energy. Hopefully, I can use him to become more energetic instead of my making him lazy. I’m doing laundry right now but I think when I’m done, I’ll take my puppy for a really long walk. I could actually go right after I put my laundry in the dryer since I only have one load. I need to get my life in order. Seriously.

I haven’t written in ages. Not that anyone really reads this thing anyway I would suppose. No one who knows me knows this blog is mine and why would anyone who doesn’t know me give a flying fuck about this crap? I don’t know. But, I care, and I need to write.

 

Scott moved out here in August. It’s probably the downfall of our relationship. Friday, I cheated on him. Saturday, we decided to break up. Not due to the cheating, he doesn’t know about that. It’s just, neither one of us is happy anymore. I need someone FUN. Actually, what I need is to be single. I’m too young for this shit. I want to be able to just go out and party all night. Well, I have been doing that. I’ve had a hang over since Saturday morning. Whatever man, life is short, beer is good, and I’m too young to stay sober all night.

 

I feel bad about cheating on Scott. And even worse about the fact that I resisted until he got home and then, when faced with him and Mr. Tall Dark and Handsome, I suddenly couldn’t resist the urge. I’m a wreck right now. And Mr. TDH is all awkward towards me now. Which is a shame because honestly, I had no interest in him as anything more than a friend until Friday. And even now, I don’t want to date him. I don’t want to date anyone. I just want to have fun. But, now I have reason to look cute all the time on the off chance I’ll see him. I guess that’s something.

 

Julia and I got an apartment. It was awesome. Then, Scott moved in. It ceased to be quite so awesome. I mean, I love Scott with all the love in my heart but, we’re just so damn different. And it’s taking it’s toll on EVERYTHING including my friendship with Julia. Gina told me last night that I should just break the lease and move in with her. I could but I don’t really want to fuck Julia quite like that. Anyway, that’s enough of that. Jane is back though lovelies.